Running Away

I started running on Saturday. I signed up for the Women's Four Miler Training Program and I registered for the race (at the end of August) and someone in my women's group is even having tee shirts printed. So I'm really doing this.

This morning, it felt so great to go out my door, walk down my driveway, and run almost half a mile, turn around, and come back. Okay, let me qualify that. It felt great to walk out my door and know that I was ABOUT to run almost one mile. Actually RUNNING the mile, that didn't feel so great. My legs felt like lead. My lungs and heart were working hard. My body was yelling, "What? You have GOT to be kidding. You did this once already, two days ago. Last time you did this was maybe ten years ago. You did it two or three times then and then had the good sense to never try this monkey business again. What the hell? I was counting on Saturday being some kind of aberration. You're doing this again? Please stop this nonsense. Can I go lie down yet?"

But I let those naysaying thoughts go, and I did it. And on Wednesday I'll do it again. And then again on Saturday for the weekly training run. The program for beginners that I'm following has us start with just running three days a week in the beginning, with a day or two of break in between. Thank God.

I really did get to walk out my door and "run away" this morning. I can't tell you how many times I have fantasized about doing that when my day was really hard and I had exhausted my patience and my coping skills. Running out of the house this morning was really empowering. Funny though, one of my favorite things about it was coming home and hearing my kids cheering, "Yay mommy!" from the living room. It made me forget the tantrums and the meltdowns that I had to cope with from the moment they woke up at 5:45am!

This running thing is my latest step in my journey to feel like and to practice being my Best Self. What are some projects that you've taken on, or habits you've developed or broken, that have helped you practice being your Best Self? Any advice for me on how to stick with this when I feel like quitting, as I am sure I will? I will be posting some motivational quotes on my fridge and bathroom mirror, and around my computer monitor. Your own words or the words of others - doesn't matter. Post a comment!